So, I find myself in 2012, married with 2 kids, a dog, a mortgage and a partridge in a pear tree. I'm happy. Fulfilled. Love Jesus. Love my family. Sigh. But I want to be more intentional. That is my goal for this year. To walk this life with intention in every area.
Intention (in-ten-shun) noun: purpose or attitude toward the effect of one's actions or conduct.
So often I find my self being reactive instead of proactive. This, I think...is in direct relation to being intentional.
For example: The dishwasher is full. So I leave the morning dishes in the sink praying to Jesus that the husband will unload the dishwasher and load the dishes. This, in fact, is not what happens. He in turn, leaves dishes from lunch also praying to Jesus that I will unload the dishwasher and do the dishes. 3 days and 152 dishes later...one of us find ourselves doing dishes for an hour when it would have only taken 5 minutes to wash the breakfast dishes from 3 days ago if we had just done that in the first place. So then...I am stuck scrubbing and slaving over nasty, gross dishes. REACTIVE.
Another example: There is a donut. Yum. I eat it. 5 years after kids later I find myself...let's just say a lot of pounds heavier than I once was...needing to lose all this weight when if I had just been more intentional about healthy eating to begin with I wouldn't need to slave over losing unwanted pounds. Then when the boy sees pictures of me from our wedding day he doesn't have to say things like, "Mommy, how come when you married daddy your tummy was flat?" And then I don't have to point my finger in his face and declare "WHEN YOU CARRY TWO HUMAN BEINGS IN YOUR GUT YOU CAN ASK ME THAT QUESTION AGAIN!" I mean...errr...that's not actually what I said. But it sure is what I wanted to say. Instead, I smiled at him and told him that sometimes that just happens to mommies after they have kids. Normal mommies anyway...darn you skinny moms! YOU MAKE US ALL LOOK BAD! :) I mean, way to lose your baby weight, you look great and stuff...
Our lives require intentional living. Emotionally, spiritually, physically, financially, in relationships, at work...I want to KNOW that my actions have purpose and are helping me achieve the effect that I want in this life.
This year, the boy starts Kindergarten. Baby Z turns 2. WHERE DOES THE TIME GO?!? As they grow, chaos grows. Being intentional with my time with my two amazing boys gets even more crucial. They're so cool. And amazing. And Jesus is letting me raise them. PROACTIVE!
2012 is going to be a great year. Intentionally. You'll see. YOU'LL ALL SEE! : )